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Why am I up?? Sitting here contemplating my next move in my life. I was listening to David Jeremiah's sermon title, "A bend in the road". It gave me much to think about.

This unexpected bend in the road has at times caused me to run to the foot of the cross knowing that.. Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. However when I have down time and my mind isn't busy I become mildly depressed. I realize the depression stems from my lack of trust in God. Intellectually I am certain that God is real and that He is always in control but emotionally I find myself on a roller coaster ride. This journey of surrender and resting in Gods plan is one that requires discipline. It's much easier to feel sorry for myself and rationalize a few months of ME TIME or to have a pity party which would include my favorite things-sinfilled or not. I am choosing to keep pressing towards the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Jesus. I want to meet Jesus and I want to please Him with what I have left of my life even though it will mean discipline and saying HELL NO to my flesh.

Am I disappointed and saddened by Geico's decision to fire me..YES! I honestly loved the company and gave it my best most of the time. I tried to be a positive person and encourage as many coworkers as I could. I may not have been the best but I did my best. I was fired for being late and I was late. Do I believe my lateness's should've resulted in being fired...NO. I have noticed in the last 3-4 years of working at Geico the focus is no longer on employees, building moral or relationships its now a numbers game. Dollars and cents has become the bottom line. In the past year or so I had some major changes in my life but that wasnt taken into consideration in fact my manager didnt even ask me how my personal life was. In spite of this I am choosing to believe God has something else for me.


My plans so far:
Study Study Study the Word of God
Pray Pray Pray and draw closer to HIM
Visit the Hair Design Institute
Volunteer in my local juvenile detention center as a mentor
Lose weight and eat healthier Visit my sisters in TN..cant wait
Continue getting my house decorated
Help my husband with his business by learning more about the immigration laws

So far so good..these things will take discipline and sacrifice but I am up for it. I am blessed to live in a country where I can study the Bible, change careers at 41 and actually eat less. I refuse to take my life for granted. I have wasted many years as a young woman..details to be revealed when appropriate...but as a believer in Jesus I will not waste many more.

Until next time...