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Why am I up?? Sitting here contemplating my next move in my life. I was listening to David Jeremiah's sermon title, "A bend in the road". It gave me much to think about.

This unexpected bend in the road has at times caused me to run to the foot of the cross knowing that.. Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. However when I have down time and my mind isn't busy I become mildly depressed. I realize the depression stems from my lack of trust in God. Intellectually I am certain that God is real and that He is always in control but emotionally I find myself on a roller coaster ride. This journey of surrender and resting in Gods plan is one that requires discipline. It's much easier to feel sorry for myself and rationalize a few months of ME TIME or to have a pity party which would include my favorite things-sinfilled or not. I am choosing to keep pressing towards the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Jesus. I want to meet Jesus and I want to please Him with what I have left of my life even though it will mean discipline and saying HELL NO to my flesh.

Am I disappointed and saddened by Geico's decision to fire me..YES! I honestly loved the company and gave it my best most of the time. I tried to be a positive person and encourage as many coworkers as I could. I may not have been the best but I did my best. I was fired for being late and I was late. Do I believe my lateness's should've resulted in being fired...NO. I have noticed in the last 3-4 years of working at Geico the focus is no longer on employees, building moral or relationships its now a numbers game. Dollars and cents has become the bottom line. In the past year or so I had some major changes in my life but that wasnt taken into consideration in fact my manager didnt even ask me how my personal life was. In spite of this I am choosing to believe God has something else for me.


My plans so far:
Study Study Study the Word of God
Pray Pray Pray and draw closer to HIM
Visit the Hair Design Institute
Volunteer in my local juvenile detention center as a mentor
Lose weight and eat healthier Visit my sisters in TN..cant wait
Continue getting my house decorated
Help my husband with his business by learning more about the immigration laws

So far so good..these things will take discipline and sacrifice but I am up for it. I am blessed to live in a country where I can study the Bible, change careers at 41 and actually eat less. I refuse to take my life for granted. I have wasted many years as a young woman..details to be revealed when appropriate...but as a believer in Jesus I will not waste many more.

Until next time...

The Forgotten Blog

I haven't posted anything in a very long time. I have been extremely busy. In fact I have possibly been too busy because I got fired yesterday. YUP FIRED! After 10 years of hard work, encouragement and loyalty..FIRED. Although I was fired by man I know that God is in control. I certainly wish I could send this post to Geico and have the managers read it LOL. I am a daughter of the King of kings and Lord of all. I will have moments of sadness and shock but I know that all things work together for good for me because I love God. So my GRCC-my church is on a fast until 5/27/12. I haven't been on my best behavior for the past 2 days but I am getting back in the saddle. I have been praying that I make it into heaven no matter what God has to change or reorder in my life. Then I wondered will my job be something that He will take away. A few months ago the Holy Spirit led me to read Job-chapter one. Then I realized that somethings in my life were going to change in order to lead me to a more intimate relationship with God. If this is going to lead me to knowing Him more intimately then I welcome this death. I am afraid of course but I am willing to see what new adventure God has planned for me. I am going to take the advice of my friend and sister -take your time. I need to slow down my life and see what God is up to instead of expecting God to catch up to me and work on my schedule. I am a control freak and my attempts to limit God and show Him what parts of my life He is allowed to touch are what has brought me to this point. My assistant pastor made a statement that God hedges in new believers-this wasn't my experience at all. I immediately was thrown into the fire. I now see how this caused me to begin putting up my guard towards God and not truly trusting His plans for me. Now I have time to reevaluate my walk and whether or not I am really in "The Way". I also have time to blog..LOL.

FL-SH

I left out the vowel intentionally, kind of like how some Christians and Jewish folks spell G-d. Flesh has been an idol for me more than I'd like to admit in 2011. Fasting sunk way down on my to do list and so has most other forms of crucifying my flesh. Grace..if it wasnt for the GRACE of God I would be most miserable. When I get discouraged and down on myself for not meeting my expectations I have for myself. I remember that 5 letter G word and how Jesus laid down His life for me. He considers me His friend and sister, and I consider Him my God and my Savior. He has freed me from the bondage I chose to enslave myself to over and over again. I chose slavery and He has given me freedom. I can say I am glad to be aware that I have a choice as well as the freedom to choose. This is a great time to lay down my life before God and allow Him to search me, try me and know my heart. I am willing to hear from Him as he reveals any and every wicked way in me and points me in that straight and narrow path that leads to Him.cI absolutely love the adventure of being a disciple of Christ!