Death, dying, being pulverized, smashed..dying instantly or slowly and painfully-these all describe my experiences right now with Christ. Now I am not complaining but I am dying and in pain. Deep pain that grips my heart-my heart of flesh and sin. The sin nature in me is crying out,"Cant a small piece of me live? Are you really going to allow this to happen to me? You wont have any fun! God is gonna embarrass you and make you do something that makes you look to radical...crazy!"
O flesh, stinking and corrupt-LEAVE ME ALONE. I feel my sin nature holding on and fighting to stay. Telling me to compromise or reason. Why fast? Why pray? Why be faithful to Pierre? If God really loved you wouldn't He have healed your womb? Where are your children?..OK that's flesh and of course the prince soon to be the cast into hell and fallen angel-Satan.
Be sober I say to myself! BE COURAGEOUS! You are chosen and a daughter of Jesus. He who sustains the earth in its orbit, who keeps the world from being given over to complete evil and lasciviousness. Belief is what is keeping me looking up and forward instead of down and back. Believing God and His Word..He isn't a man that He should lie..we are the liars.
I am so sick of scientists and so called intellectuals explaining God away because they refuse to accept who they are. They lead the innocent and fools astray by "discrediting" Jesus and the Word. LAME!! They have no clear cut answers. Christians let's be transparent and real about "THE WAY". Let's not give them the chance to discredit us. Every mistake, every answer we don't have, every time we crucify Christ -another soul accepts the LIE Satan is feeding them.
I am a Christian who struggles and who wants to be me..not self righteous or finger pointing. Just honest about Gods Truth. I didn't write the Book..but I am gonna read it and live it and fail and repent and fail and get the victory and fail and then ...guess what???? I am gonna see Jesus..not because I am so awesome and holy but because I am a chosen, born again, peculiar believer, who knows that the Truth..not my truth or YOUR truth but THE TRUTH is freeing.
Stop believing every so called intellect who has a convincing argument before you end up eternally separated from God with no hope of a 2nd chance.
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